40 Days and Nights
John's life is a bit of a wilderness for now, passing time without much purpose while his body grows stronger. He says he feels about back to where he was shortly before the leukemia symptoms surfaced.
I can tell he is not himself yet. He seems something like a normal twentyish college student living in a malaise but never energetic or enthusiastic. It will take time, but I hope he grows stronger. Living with a crippling disease for long times has to wear on your will. It's no wonder that heart attacks can lead to depression, as the studies report.
John has his circle of close friends and he seems to be the one that connects them. It is good for him to have his new girlfriend to connect with and she seems nice. (Parents need not to have too strong an opinion about such things, since children will react the opposite way to their views).
So, with all that in context, John threw up Wednesday. That is a big bump in the road and cause for concern, if not alarm. He seemed better Thursday and sees the doctor today. Hopefully, his blood counts will remain good and it will be only a bump. Still, it is a reminder that we could go back to life with leukemia on any given day, instead of worrying about whether he is growing stronger.
Living in crisis, with one thing to focus on, is easier, in some ways, than trying to prioritize and deal with the many things everyday life presents. In a crisis, there is only one thing to do and you don't stop to consider the odds. Normal life brings too many small things to juggle, and a sense that they matter more than they really do. It's morning now though, and time for the day's circus.
I can tell he is not himself yet. He seems something like a normal twentyish college student living in a malaise but never energetic or enthusiastic. It will take time, but I hope he grows stronger. Living with a crippling disease for long times has to wear on your will. It's no wonder that heart attacks can lead to depression, as the studies report.
John has his circle of close friends and he seems to be the one that connects them. It is good for him to have his new girlfriend to connect with and she seems nice. (Parents need not to have too strong an opinion about such things, since children will react the opposite way to their views).
So, with all that in context, John threw up Wednesday. That is a big bump in the road and cause for concern, if not alarm. He seemed better Thursday and sees the doctor today. Hopefully, his blood counts will remain good and it will be only a bump. Still, it is a reminder that we could go back to life with leukemia on any given day, instead of worrying about whether he is growing stronger.
Living in crisis, with one thing to focus on, is easier, in some ways, than trying to prioritize and deal with the many things everyday life presents. In a crisis, there is only one thing to do and you don't stop to consider the odds. Normal life brings too many small things to juggle, and a sense that they matter more than they really do. It's morning now though, and time for the day's circus.
